Last week, I lost a very good friend of mine to cancer. It was sudden in the end and it shook me. I was rattled to my core. Filled with sadness, my heart felt broken and sunk to the bottom of my chest.
“When was the last time I saw her? I should have tried ringing her again since Christmas? How did this happen? I can’t believe I will never talk to her again.”
Since the weekend, I have searched internally to try and seek answers and I made a new choice. Rather than wallow in the sadness, I have chosen to just acknowledge it as it aries and instead cherish the memories I had with her, the great experiences, the laughs, the deep chats and be fully grateful that I was lucky enough to meet her and to call her my friend.
In my exploration, I thought back to books I had read by Eckhart Tolle and Anthony De Mello. Who is it that will miss her? Is it my true self?
The answer I have found is that if I feel less that she is no longer in my life it is the work of the egoic mind. It is ‘my loss’ that I am really feeling sorry for. My selfishness. It sounds cold but once you see it is crystal clear.
This clarity helps keep me aligned. Connected to the source. Back to peace and contentment and most importantly now extra appreciative of the wonderful memories with my friend.
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